-Running, resistance, and mental control.-

Good evening, dear readers.

Today has been a particularly intense day. I took a work-related exam that, unfortunately, didn’t go very well. Even though the job I do isn’t something I truly enjoy, I was still a bit disappointed. I know I should be grateful to have a salary, but it’s not my path. I’ve tried to make it work, but nothing changes — the need to do something else has been constant for over a year now. I don’t want to dwell too much on this, so let’s move on.

Today was a double training day. The second session of my new road to a three-hour marathon program. Very demanding. I felt a lot of fatigue, but it’s the kind of fatigue I like — the kind that makes the rest of the day feel lighter and happier.

I love running. In the past, I hated it, but over time I’ve learned to appreciate it. I love the sensations it gives me: freedom, inner dialogue, effort. I love being able to move my body with my own legs, to cover long distances, or simply to run fast. The rush of adrenaline mixed with happiness that running gives me is something I’ve never felt with any other sport.

Running far allows me to have a dialogue with myself, where day after day I try to face doubts, problems, and worries that wander through my thoughts. If I had to choose one word to define this sport, it would be FREEDOM. You put on your shoes, get dressed, and go. You don’t need anything except your body and your mind.

I’ve realized that long distances are what I want to train for. And you might wonder why. It’s not about crossing finish lines — it’s about controlling my mind. And what better way than managing hours and hours of running alone? Forging my mind through running is my purpose. I want to reach every limit and push beyond it.

Of course, I’m still competitive. I care about the times I set as goals. But recently there’s been a mental shift. The goal is no longer just to run because I have to, or only to improve my physical shape. That’s now secondary. I run to see where my mental limits are — and to break them. I want to control my mind, not the other way around.

I also want to talk about how my 75-day challenge is going. I no longer feel the constant need to open Instagram and scroll compulsively. Sometimes the impulse is there — wanting to check stories and see what people are doing — but I suppress it and choose something else instead. My social media time is under 30 minutes a day. I’m satisfied, and very happy about it.

My decision to control my caffeine addiction is also going very well. I’ve reduced my intake from five coffees a day to just one, before training. This was hard. During the first three days, avoiding caffeine in the first 90 minutes after waking up and drinking only one coffee before training caused chronic fatigue, forcing me to take 30-minute power naps for two afternoons in a row. From the fourth day onward, the fatigue disappeared. I now feel full of energy even without coffee.

I’m happy that I’m fighting RESISTANCE, and I won’t hide the fact that I’m winning. I’m also glad I’ve found my ideal morning routine: waking up without using my phone, meditating, writing, and reading gives me a sense of fulfillment and helps me start the day calm and grounded. Training at least once a day is non-negotiable.

It’s now been seven days without episodes of binge eating. It’s still early, and I don’t want to celebrate too soon, but there’s one thing I can say: I WIN against RESISTANCE. It won’t have me.

Another day of thinking about wanting to spend time abroad, completely change my environment and the people around me, and feel new things. I don’t want to use change as a way to escape my problems, but I’m a born traveler. I need to explore, to change environments often, and to discover new cultures.

Japanese philosophy feels deeply aligned with who I am. Maybe that’s why it’s always on my mind. I’m fascinated by Japan — not only for its beautiful places and incredible food, but for the simplicity and genuineness that the people seem to embody. It’s a country that gives me a sense of peace, where people aren’t obsessed with rushing, but prefer slowness. Enjoying every single moment of life, without hurry.

I want to fully explore their culture and learn as much as possible from it. I want to capture and share many videos and photos.

With that said, dear readers, I wish you a good evening.
See you tomorrow.