-Listening to my gut instead of fear.-

Good morning, dear readers.

Today, despite the cloudy sky, it’s a beautiful day and I feel very fresh. I started with a good run from my new marathon training program. I’m happy.

I slept really well last night, followed my morning routine, and I feel ready to face the day. Today I’m leaving for a three-day work trip, and I’m glad to break away a bit from my usual routine.

This morning I was thinking about something that has been with me for a long time. I’m tired of going out with friends and realizing that most conversations revolve around talking about other people and making judgments. I no longer want that. From now on, if I go out, I want my conversations — and the only words coming out of my mouth — to be positive. I want to talk about life, travel, beautiful and meaningful things, without giving space to conversations that go nowhere.

This morning I also thought about how excited I am about the idea of going to Japan. I don’t know why, but whenever I talk about it or look at photos, it gives me a deep sense of peace and calm.

I’m obsessed with traveling. I deeply love discovering new places, running in new countries, and trying local food. If I could choose what to do for the rest of my life, I think traveling, training, and photographing would be all I need. And I want it to be that way — but I need to find a way to make a living and stay true to myself.

We dream big, but we do very little to achieve those dreams. I need that spark — the kind of obsession that pushes me to pursue my goals relentlessly. Sometimes I feel like I give up on life and surrender, but that’s not who I am. I need to fight this RESISTANCE that works against me. I can’t let it win. I need to overcome it.

I am strong. I know what I want from my life. I just need to find the strength to go against the current.

I know I will hurt people who try to protect me by telling me not to leave my comfort zone, not to take risks, to keep my job because it’s a “safe place.” But I feel anything but safe. I feel sadness at the idea of wasting my time doing a job that doesn’t fulfill me.

Of course, I’m grateful to have a salary and a roof over my head — but it’s not what I want.

By nature, I’m someone who goes against the current. I’ve never really followed the crowd. I’ve always done things my own way. I know I will hurt people who love me and want to protect me, but it’s time for me to follow my path, not the one they think is right for me.

Sometimes we need to stop thinking with our head and start listening to our gut and our heart. We need to follow what makes us feel alive, not what others have programmed us to do.

The idea of a “safe place” fills me with sadness and anxiety. On one hand, I know I’m lucky to have my current job and income. On the other, I’m afraid — afraid of never pursuing my goals because I’m trapped inside the comfort zone.

I don’t want to spend forty years of my life in a “safe place” just to retire. I don’t want to wait until retirement to start living. I don’t want to give away forty years of my life following someone else’s path.

I will do everything I can to achieve the goals I set and visualize. I am strong. I know I’m missing that spark and that fire right now, but I also know it will come from within me.

I want to take my time, not compare myself to anyone, and not feel late. This is my life, my path. Time and dedication are the only things I truly believe in.

I will pursue all my goals, whatever it takes.

Dear readers, I wish you a good day.
See you tomorrow.