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-A cold morning, a quiet mind, and the first real fight against resistance.-

Good morning, dear readers.

Today is a beautiful day. It’s cold, but the sun is out.
I don’t know exactly why, but starting the day early with a good book and a cold run makes me happy.

I’ve already learned an important lesson from this challenge: turning off my phone one hour before bed and spending that time reading or doing offline activities has dramatically improved my sleep. I slept seven hours straight and woke up calm and relaxed.

Today I also had my first real encounter with Resistance.
Resistance is the force that tries to pull you back into your comfort zone the moment you try to leave it. It will fight your decisions, and you have to be strong enough to push through.

This morning it wanted me to stay in bed, warm, scrolling on social media. For Resistance, that’s my safe place.
Today, I won.

I didn’t accept its conditions. I got up, meditated, wrote, and went out to train in the cold.

I’m tired of surrendering to Resistance. I want to fight it every day. I want to take my life back and make it mine. I don’t want to depend on anyone anymore — only on myself.

I still haven’t found my path, that one thing to chase obsessively. But I know I’m looking for it in the right way: by challenging myself and giving 100%, even in the smallest things.

I have many ideas in my head. They’re messy, but they’re there.
Today I’ll work on my goals for 2026. Tomorrow I’ll share them with you.

Have a good day, dear readers.
And remember to stand up to Resistance in the search for yourself and your purpose.

See you tomorrow.

-Find my purpose and build discipline.-

Welcome back, dear readers.

I spent the last five days in London.
Now it’s time to return to the present.

I’ve decided to start a challenge that will help me build discipline and, more importantly, understand what my path really is.
For a long time now, I’ve been spending my days procrastinating, endlessly scrolling, and complaining about my life — when in reality, everything comes down to one word: purpose.

Not having a purpose means not having a real reason to move forward.
It means staying stuck, constantly complaining, and slowly realizing how much time you’re wasting living a life that doesn’t truly represent you.

It’s the gap between who you are and who you want to become.
And that’s exactly how I feel: constantly afraid of being late, afraid of making decisions, trapped in a life that doesn’t fulfill me.

I’m tired of scrolling through social media, dreaming about a better life without doing anything to change it.

So, dear readers, I’ve decided to bring you with me on my 75 Days Challenge.
A challenge against myself, in search of my purpose and the construction of new, healthy habits.

I’ve set 10 daily rules for myself:

• wake up at 6 a.m. (no later)
• read at least 10 pages of a book
• 5 minutes of breathing and meditation
• one workout per day
• no phone for the first 30 minutes after waking up
• turn off my phone one hour before going to bed
• daily journaling
• publish one post on this blog every day
• no compulsive social media scrolling
• no junk food

Does it sound extreme?
I don’t think so.

I want to find myself again, build discipline, and understand who I want to be and what I want to do in life.
I want to say no to a life — and a job — that don’t reflect who I am and what I stand for.

And this is how I begin Day 1 of this challenge.
I’ll take you with me on this journey.

Have a good day.

-A public diary documenting doubt, change, and the courage to start from zero.-

Happy New Year, dear readers.

Welcome to my diary.
This will be my space — a place where I will document, starting from zero, the journey toward my goals for this year.

I decided to start this diary to talk to you, to keep you updated on what I want to achieve and who I am trying to become.
2025 has tested me deeply. There have been many changes, intense crises, and moments where I felt completely lost.

I tried everything to change myself, to understand what my path really was.
It’s not easy to say — and honestly, I’m still looking for it.
I have many ideas, many projects, but they often feel confused.

And so I ask myself the most important questions:

Who do I want to be this year?
What do I truly want to achieve?
And why?

If you’re still here, there’s something you should know:
in this space, I will write every doubt, fear, and worry — without filters.

I want to take you with me.
I want you to be part of my process.

I decided to challenge myself, to face and fight behaviors I’ve been carrying with me for years.
This year, I truly want to step into the game.

I know it will be hard.
There will be moments when I won’t see any light at the end of the tunnel.
But I also know that I am strong.

And that’s why I chose to open this logbook and share the journey with you.

Welcome, dear readers.