matteoraschini

-Find my purpose and build discipline.-

Welcome back, dear readers.

I spent the last five days in London.
Now it’s time to return to the present.

I’ve decided to start a challenge that will help me build discipline and, more importantly, understand what my path really is.
For a long time now, I’ve been spending my days procrastinating, endlessly scrolling, and complaining about my life — when in reality, everything comes down to one word: purpose.

Not having a purpose means not having a real reason to move forward.
It means staying stuck, constantly complaining, and slowly realizing how much time you’re wasting living a life that doesn’t truly represent you.

It’s the gap between who you are and who you want to become.
And that’s exactly how I feel: constantly afraid of being late, afraid of making decisions, trapped in a life that doesn’t fulfill me.

I’m tired of scrolling through social media, dreaming about a better life without doing anything to change it.

So, dear readers, I’ve decided to bring you with me on my 75 Days Challenge.
A challenge against myself, in search of my purpose and the construction of new, healthy habits.

I’ve set 10 daily rules for myself:

• wake up at 6 a.m. (no later)
• read at least 10 pages of a book
• 5 minutes of breathing and meditation
• one workout per day
• no phone for the first 30 minutes after waking up
• turn off my phone one hour before going to bed
• daily journaling
• publish one post on this blog every day
• no compulsive social media scrolling
• no junk food

Does it sound extreme?
I don’t think so.

I want to find myself again, build discipline, and understand who I want to be and what I want to do in life.
I want to say no to a life — and a job — that don’t reflect who I am and what I stand for.

And this is how I begin Day 1 of this challenge.
I’ll take you with me on this journey.

Have a good day.

-A public diary documenting doubt, change, and the courage to start from zero.-

Happy New Year, dear readers.

Welcome to my diary.
This will be my space — a place where I will document, starting from zero, the journey toward my goals for this year.

I decided to start this diary to talk to you, to keep you updated on what I want to achieve and who I am trying to become.
2025 has tested me deeply. There have been many changes, intense crises, and moments where I felt completely lost.

I tried everything to change myself, to understand what my path really was.
It’s not easy to say — and honestly, I’m still looking for it.
I have many ideas, many projects, but they often feel confused.

And so I ask myself the most important questions:

Who do I want to be this year?
What do I truly want to achieve?
And why?

If you’re still here, there’s something you should know:
in this space, I will write every doubt, fear, and worry — without filters.

I want to take you with me.
I want you to be part of my process.

I decided to challenge myself, to face and fight behaviors I’ve been carrying with me for years.
This year, I truly want to step into the game.

I know it will be hard.
There will be moments when I won’t see any light at the end of the tunnel.
But I also know that I am strong.

And that’s why I chose to open this logbook and share the journey with you.

Welcome, dear readers.